Not Jay-Z’s 4:44

I’m taking a course with Dr. Stacey Patton. Each week she gives an assignment and we’re to turn it in by 11:59:59 on the Saturday before our Sunday afternoon class. Allow me to be completely transparent here my middle name is “Procrastinator” so I knew this would present a challenge for me. To keep an already long story somewhat short our assignment was to create a Soundslide with original photos and audio with a duration of no more than 3 minutes. Welp! Ain’t none of that shit work out for me! Because along with being a procrastinator I am a perfectionist. Yes, you read that right! I am a walking oxymoron!

Anywho, I worked on the project for hours. Delete and repeat more times than I care to reveal. When I finally got the voiceover to my standards it was too long. I looked at the length and it was 4:44. My late husband’s favorite artists was Jay-Z. He told me one of the reasons he married me was because I could recite the entire Reasonable Doubt word for word. So when I tell you it was like the Universe slapped me, gave me writer’s cramp and carpal tunnel all at the same time while whispering “Not another edit.” I went to google to find out the meaning of repeating 4’s. According to Medium.com “444 is a number of protection and encouragement. It is a sign that you are currently following the right path. If you see the number 444 repeatedly, it is often your angel giving you a sign that they are with you. The sign is reminding you to feel confident and supported in this knowledge”

While I didn’t meet the deadline and the length ran over…. I’m telling y’all now you just gonna have to take this 4:44. Cause I gotta story to tell… Enjoy

Let There Be Light: How it all started

Lordt! It’s after midnight and I’m sitting here tryna organize all these thoughts and ideas that I have swirling around in my head. I have no idea where to begin, but then again yes I do! I just have to get out of my head and start clickity clackin on my keyboard. It doesn’t really matter what the outcome is the most important thing is that I got started. So here goes it. I am an embryo. Not sure how I even landed here. Somehow two things came together and here I am growing. Lucky me, right???

A human embryo courtesy of bioedge.com

I don’t know much but I’ve heard simple mathematics says 1 + 1 = 2. Newsflash! I’m in here by myself. So 1 (my mama) + 1 (my dad) =1 (just me). ONE EMBRYO???

Everyday I’m growing. Each day I’m getting bigger and stronger. I wonder how long this growth actually last. In each stage of my development I’m given a new name. Soon I’ll no longer be an embryo. I’m moving on to bigger and better things.

Will I be in this little sac forever? Where will I go if I get out of here? Until I outgrow this space, I’ll just enjoy all the beats and rhythm I hear coming from the darkness.

I hope y’all know by now this is all metaphor for (hmmm well kinda) this thing called life. I don’t think I can recall what it was like to enter this world, but I can tell you I’ve come to realize that this journey is really about returning us to where we started. Call it life, death, rebirth… All I know is I intend to observe and be grateful for every road that leads me closer to HOME!